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Sunday, 9 February 2014

Renewed Hope!



The sparkle is back in her eyes. Beautiful!
When I arrived at the hospital this morning and saw Suzie sitting up in bed it was as though someone had switched the light back on in her eyes. She's been so poorly this last week and has spent most of the time sleeping. Even when she's been almost awake she has been in pain, not really properly aware, and very low in her spirits.
This morning I saw a glimpse of hope in her face. She had slept well and she was awake.... properly awake. In that moment I suddenly realised that it was the first time she had been fully awake and really 'with us' for a long time. It was a truly beautiful start to the day.

On the medical front things seem to be progressing reasonably well. Suzie's chest drain was removed yesterday, having drained over two litres of fluid from her chest cavity over the last week or so. An x-ray seemed to suggest that, although there was still some fluid remaining, her lungs were looking much clearer. The decision was made to remove the drain so that they could get the next course of chemo started without any further delay. This will be done while she is still in hospital so that they can make sure all is well, and then it will be continued at home as an oral treatment.
Suzie was also taken off her oxygen yesterday. This has caused a reduction in her blood oxygen levels so it is being monitored closely. At the moment she is on the borderline of what is considered an acceptable level. If it doesn't improve it may mean that she will have to have oxygen at home, or it may simply require continued monitoring. I'll have an oximetry monitor at home so that I can check her levels regularly. 

A precious few moments in the Hospital Chapel
giving our heartfelt thanks to God for answered prayers.
I was able to get Suzie out of bed and into her wheelchair today, and we were even able to take a little 'outing' together down to the Hospital Chapel. Somehow it just seemed an appropriate place to go for our first venture off the ward for over two weeks. As a very dear friend of mine commented today, it's amazing how one's world can shrink so quickly. Midgely Ward has been our home for over two weeks, and the rest of the world has seemed a million miles away. Just getting out and going to another part of the hospital was a huge achievement.

So, as Suzie and I dare to begin to feel a sense of hope that we are nearing the end of our own current storm, we watch with awe as our home town and its neighbours face another battering this weekend from the storms of nature. Last week's rain and gale force winds are set to return with renewed ferocity. We have already seen our own sea front totally trashed by the wind and waves, and our pier almost washed away, whilst our neighbouring town of Dawlish has had its historic railway line ripped up by the savage attack of the sea. The storms haven't finished with us yet, and we are humbled as we helplessly watch the mighty power of nature cause such drama and destruction.
I thank God for two dear friends who live just down the road from the hospital and who have opened their home to me. It is such a blessing not to have to drive home in this extreme weather. I also thank God for another dear friend who has opened her home to our little dog, Millie, and is taking such good care of her so that I can be free to devote myself to Suzie. Yet again God demonstrates His complete and all-encompassing concern for all our needs. How can we fail to trust Him for the future.
The words of one of my favourite and most special hymns comes to mind........
        "Be still, my soul; thy God doth undertake
        To guide the future as He has the past. 
        Thy hope, thy confidence, let nothing shake; 
        All now mysterious shall be bright at last...."
We look to the days ahead when our hope that ''all shall be bright' will become reality.